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The thing is coming closer but it couldn't be touched. There lies hope and dreams which has no description anymore remembering that the hope and dreams have been reappear over and over again reaching zero conclusion. Now, there's only a pray for the best thing and a God's light that can bright my mind and heart keeping me from unblessing fantasy. The happiness is shouting far away deep inside me. The confusion has been interrupting my brain. The sadness appears to tease my faith to Allah the Almighty.The will has pushed me so down that I couldn't see to the other thing.The thing has been so long stayed in my heart.It's not an unresponsible passion or desire.I don't know how it starts. It comes unintentionally. As harder I push it away as easier it attacks my mind.  It's complicated but it could be understood someday as long as u realize that life is about thinking of the lesson behind His Will. Can I do that? Will I cope the effect of the feeling I have now?   One big question for me have I tried my best ? Lit me up with Your Light, Yaa Robbii, Yaa Kariim